Hi Shasta, I'm not sure what happened that I didn't get an email notification of your post. My bad.
Let’s reword your letter:
[Hello Gabby- I have caused my family to shun me. I don’t know the exact communication of mine that was the turning point. I don’t know how to get to the truth of my cause in this matter; my mind is loaded with excuses and reasons which I know have nothing to do with the truth of my creation. The situation worsened when my husband committed suicide; I’ve had a difficult time accepting responsibility for his death so there’s lots of covert blame and anger directed at me.]
Hi Shasta: It doesn’t work for me to submit myself to any kind of abuse be it stink-eye or obvious avoidance. I end up making them wrong when it’s me who put myself in their space to be abused. With this in mind, I get that you’re addicted to abuse else you wouldn’t be submitting yourself to these abuses. One either has an abuse-free day or they have their reasons.
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