Hi Concerned: What a great letter, so responsible of you. For certain there are readers who are also bearing the burden of agreeing to a secret that ought not to have been made.

Your parents were supposed to have taught you to not agree to keep secrets, more specifically, to not create space for another to dump stuff in your mind that then creates a problem, or presents you with an ethical dilemma. Friends simply don’t do that to friends. Notice that Zoe supports you in being deceitful with your parents. It’s unethical to ask someone to not tell others something. Zoe manipulated you into not telling others, this conflicts with your own ethics. Incest and pedophilia are not things one is supposed to keep quiet about.

Because of your maturity you have inspired confidence and trustworthiness and so you have been introduced to a pitfall about secrets. Most of us learn by making the mistake of agreeing to keep a secret that then turns into a conspiracy of ever-growing deceit. The secret-keeper is no longer a person of integrity. A person who operates from integrity (an honest person) can tell in a nano-second that the secret-keeper is hiding something; they don’t know what but they know there’s something in the space where communication used to take place. The openness, the aura of honesty is somewhat clouded over.

Your parents should have told you earlier to let friends know, “I’m no good with secrets so don’t tell me anything you don’t want others to know. My parents and I talk about everything, we don’t hide anything from each other.”

Your concern reveals that you don’t have open and honest communication between you and your folks else you would have already discussed this with them with the confidence of knowing that it would be handled appropriately.

It could be said that you unconsciously set up your friend to dump this secret in your lap in support of you being open and honest with your parents. This is your integrity at work putting the finishing touches on your personal growth and character. It’s one of those forks in the road. You will either commit to being open and honest and spontaneous with your parents, and therefore your relationship-partners for life, or, you will bring your already ingrained pattern of withholding thoughts from say, your future husband, as you do now with your parents. Millions of divorced couples will attest that their marriage started to go south when they chose to withhold thought number one from their partner sometime at the very beginning of the relationship. Now is the time to practice communicating openly and honestly and spontaneously with your parents.

Notice also that you have not discussed your concerns with Zoe. This is another example of how ingrained your pattern of withholding thoughts has become. A person committed to being in-integrity could no more have walked away from that conversation with Zoe than they could ignore a grain of sand in their eye. You felt as badly and confused then, as she was telling you her drama, as you do now; something was sapping your consciousness, you didn’t spontaneously share your considerations at the moment with her. Now you are even more out-integrity, dragging this problem around from class to class trying to learn subject matter with this crap occupying your mind. The problem reveals that you were out-integrity about something before that conversation with Zoe; you had been hiding something from your parents—but that’s another letter.

Here’s an example of what that conversation with Zoe should have been about:

“Wow Zoe. I sure am uncomfortable with the thought of having to keep that a secret from my parents; we are  committed to talking about everything, no secrets. Your Mom should have reported the abuse to the police. She should have insisted upon counseling and most importantly she should have initiated a divorce. It’s simply unethical of your Mom to submit you to the remote possibility that it may happen again. It reveals how much she needs therapy, that she could be so unconscious, so not in communication with your Dad, that she couldn’t tell what was going on right under her nose. Can you see this? Do you get what I’m saying? Do you see that your silence rewards abuse? Do you see that your Mom is sick and needs help? I need you to tell me that you know this. Would you be willing to tell your mother that if she doesn’t report this to the authorities that she leaves you no option but to report them yourself? It’s so bad Zoe that if you don’t do this, you’ll leave me no choice but to tell my folks whom I’m certain will ask you the same questions. They will ask you to ask your Mom to turn herself in or they will have no choice but to report your parents. Yours is a cry for help.”

As you read this reply your mind began manufacturing considerations (thoughts and reasons) as to why you couldn’t do the right thing, to tell Zoe, “Tell your Mom to report herself to child welfare or that you will tell your parents.” Those are just considerations. If you believe them (buy into them) those reasons will serve as barriers to the experience of communication between you and everyone for the rest of your life. That’s how important this fork in the road is. It’s so important that it’s one of those rare instances in which I’m not willing to be in communication with you via Gabby's Message Board until you can tell me that you’ve confided with your parents about this. For me to not issue this ultimatum to you would make me the enabler of the sex abuse between Zoe and her Dad. Your promise, your secret, is having a powerful effect on many lives. —Gabby

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