Congrats on completing the 5 clearings. You have an excellent grasp of the process; however, there are specific indicators missing from your clearings that let me know when a person is somewhat complete. In my Workshop Co-facilitators Training Program participants complete 60 hours of paired sharings doing clearings. The process erases years of guilt and stress from one’s face, so much so that everyone is so elated and high they all look ten years younger. It’s a truly remarkable experience to be gotten, to be completely acknowledged, to have no secrets.
Re: “Could you suggest a next step?” I recommend that you first read about the other three Clearing House
processes and then re read The Clearing Process
instructions and examples and then do five more clearings, as close as possible to one per day for five days in a row. Without anyone to clear with, no one with whom you have open and honest communication the next best thing is either the clearing process or journaling.
The clearing process is not about cleaning up the messes, rather it is about emptying your mind, it’s about being acknowledged for everything, all the good and the bad things. What we’re aiming for is an experience of integrity, even if only for a day or just one hour. In the space of being in integrity the answers automatically appear as to what to do and what needs cleaning up etc.
I also recommend that you read at least one Dear Gabby
letter each day. In doing so you’ll keep to the front of your mind different thoughts than what your mind has been generating. I liken the letters to all the conversations we were supposed to have had with parents, the stuff we know about but don’t know to the extant that we do what works all the time. Myself I like to listen to various chanting music while I drive. Not that I'm a devotee but that when I listen to such sounds it preoccupies my mind; left on it’s own to wander it generates junk, worrying, road rage, etc. I also clear with a support group partner. He has developed the ability to get me and I him. We have been clearing several times a week and meeting for three hours every other week for 17 years just to empty our minds. It works.
I also recommend creating and writing affirmations. They work.
It might be of interest to know that I’m convinced that ex cons would make excellent therapists, counselors, and coaches if they were interested and given the training. Check out the Community Support Group Project